Tom Milsom

OMG, this guy is amazing.
Check him out on: http://www.youtube.com/user/hexachordal
He's funny, cute, and he's a musician! Make sure you check out Umbrella by Rihanna on the ukulele. And doesn't he just have the cutest British accent you've ever heard?

So it's been 11 days since my last post. I mean, I was never going to post daily, but 11 days?

Laters.
Joshua.

My Weekend

I'm so tired right now. I went to one of my uncles 60th b-day party on the weekend, and there was just so many people. It was my mum's side of the family, and she's one of like 9 kids. And, just to make things better, my assorted cousins all seem to be breeding. There were about 14 kids under the age of 10, and as far as I can remember they're all second cousins. But it was good to catch up with everyone, because there is usually only like one or two of these things a year, and there were a few people there I hadn't seen in years. And some cousins-in-law I hadn't met that were pretty cool. I really did enjoy it, It just really tired me out. Did I mention that it was somewhere that's like two and a half hours away from home? Anywho, I'm starting to ramble, so I'd better head off to bed.
Laters.
Joshua.

10 things about me

So it seems like just about every blog I read had done one of these lately. I decided to do one, purely so I have an excuse to do an entire post just about me. So here they are:

1. When I grow up I want to be a Fashion Designer. But I'll settle for just doing it when I'm older.
2. I'm a total virgin. I've never done anything sexual with a guy or a girl.
3. I have small feet. I'm like 6ft tall with size 8 shoes (and they're usually a bit too long).
4. I love listening to music and singing. I don't really have a favourite genre, but I probably listen to more rock/pop than anything else.
5. I love reading. Especially fantasy and some sci/fi (the stuff that doesn't get too technical. If I wanna read about science I'll read non-fiction).
6. I have a really short attention span. The only way I can sit reasonably still for long enough to write a post for this blog is to have music on in the background. Multitasking helps me focus.
7. I'm the stereotypical gay guy. I like shopping, the colour pink, musicals, watching E! channel, clothes, fashion (yes there is a difference) and interior design.
8. I'm an only child, but I have lots of cousins.
9. I don't have a religion, and I don't want one. I feel that other people are welcome to their own belief systems, but I don't wan to know about them.

So I decided only to do 9 out of pure contrariness. But so you don't feel short-changed, here's a Joshua quote (I might do more of these in future posts. None are in any way serious unless otherwise indicated).

• "You're entitled to have a different opinion to me. Just make sure you know that it's wrong."

Laters.
Joshua.

Editing

Wasn't that last post just way too long? Anyway, I wanted to write about how my spelling and grammar always seem not too bad in these posts, but the last post was long enough already. I'll try to keep this short. I edit heavily. Sometime I may just not edit so you can see how bad the pre-production version is.
Laters peeps.
Joshua

Choices (or lack thereof), Draco/Harry & Gossip Girl

So, it's been a while since I last posted.
This one's a long one, so bear with me.

To start with, I just read one of the best Harry & Draco fics I have ever come across. It's called A Line in the Sand, and it isn't finished yet, but it's based on an interesting premise. What if Harry had ended up in Slytherin, and Hermione had ended up in Ravenclaw? Before anyone objects to the idea of Harry & Draco, let me finish writing about it. The fic isn't pure smut, in fact so far it isn't smut at all. All descriptions of any kind of sexual act are purely used to help describe the background info of the characters (one of them was raped, but you'll have to read it to find out which). The reason I like it isn't because it's about Draco and Harry falling in love with each other. It's because of the emotive quality of the writing. To me, there are two types of good books/stories. The best can usually come under both categories. One of them is good in what I refer to as a literary sense. It has excellent structure and use of language. If a book is only under this category, I will have trouble reading it. It'll be like mental exercise. The other type is good in an emotive sense. It manages to make me laugh and cry, be happy and sad. They can be, but aren't necessarily, also in the first category. Some of the best won't be in the first category, such as the aforementioned fic. They can have terrible spelling and grammar, and be barely legible.
I have to confess, I have a slight crush on Tom Felton (you know, the actor who played Draco in the HP movies). And he's a musician too! Check him out on http://www.youtube.com/user/feltbeats and on iTunes. And yes, those are original songs. I haven't really talked about it before, but I love music. In the future I may elaborate, but for now, I'll just mention that I sing (not particularly well, but better than when I started). I just love expressing myself through song. Just think of the duet possibilities *sigh*.

Anywho, enough about that. Mirrorboy has recently posted about how coming out isn't a choice (his blog and all others referred to usually linked in sidebar), and about when he started to realise he liked boys, and it got me thinking about my own realisations. I grew up with parents who were quite open minded about things, and I think that helped me a lot. I have never struggled to accept my sexuality. I do, however, have numerous personality disorders, so I did not escape mentally unscarred. But who I was attracted to never bothered me. I think this was, though, in part due to my complete ignorance in the matter. I had no preconceptions. I knew where babies came from, but didn't ever really consider sex as anything other than a way to make babies. Then came the purely hormonal sexual urges. I was about 11, and at first they were directed only at girls. That's right, at one point I was straight. But how I started becoming attracted to boys as well shows, I think, that at least in my case, it wasn't a result of any kind of choice. Sometime after I turned 12, I started also getting horny over guys. I never thought that I wasn't supposed to have those feelings, so I never really was uncomfortable about them. I would like to point out that I had no idea at this point of the concepts of sexual orientation. I also never considered what anyone else was going through with their sexual development. I was, and remain today, an extremely self-centered individual. I didn't know what gay was really, and at no point made any kind of choice or decision about who I was attracted to. Gradually the attraction to girls declined, until I found I was only attracted to boys. But none of it ever concerned me. I was always comfortable with my sexuality. I didn't come out because I felt no need to.
In the end I came out to a straight guy friend of mine only because I had a crush on him. Regretfully, I also informed him of said crush. Did I mention that he's a total homophobe? And I knew he was? It did not end well, but I'll talk more about that some other time. The first person I came out to face to face (yes I came out to the homophobe via txt message. Boy did I handle that one badly) was another friend who had been told by the homophobe about the txts. At this point I should mention that I still considered myself Bisexual at the time of the txts. So my other friend ask me if they were true. By the time that conversation happened though, I considered myself gay. So I told him they weren't, that I was wrong. I should also mention, that, as a delightful side note, this conversation occurred during Health class while we were doing Sexuality projects. So the class ended and I went to my next one, which the friend I was talking to also in. I was sitting there assuming the conversation was over when he asked me "So you're not bi?". I truthfully responded no. Then he asked "So you're straight?". I thought one single word, and that expletive was not thought angrily. It's hard to explain the inflection. I decided to stay with the truth and once again, said no. And that was it I was out. There's more I can talk about here, but I'll save it for a later post.

Now for Gossip Girl.
In New Zealand we only recently got the show and are partway through the first series. I love it. But it's on at a disgusting time. They put it on at 10:30 on a Friday night! Okay, so I have no social life so I can stay up and watch it. It's still inconvenient. The most recent episode was the one where Eric van der Woodsen was outed to his mum and sister by the horrible Georgiana. Isn't Connor Paolo (the guy that plays Eric) just so extremely cute? I just want to lick him lol. I have no illusions that just because his character is gay that means he is. But I can still dream and fantasise about him.

Well that post was just a tad long. I think anyone that managed to follow it to the end probably deserves some sort of medal. I tried unsuccessfully to paragraph it, I really did. I just never got the hang of them in English.
Anywho, laters ppl.
Joshua.

Can't think of a title

Lol, I haven't posted in ages.
So, I have a couple of things to talk about today.
Firstly, I just want to say how gutted I am to hear that TheJoeFrom1993 is retiring from vlogging. His vlog was great and I will really miss it. You're just so talented Joe, you should definitely be on TV someday.
Secondly, I wanna say how pissed off I am about what happened to AJ and Matt. I get so angry about how so many people are prejudiced. These particular guys were losers, and I hope they catch lots of nasty STDs. And it sucks how their problems can stop you doing stuff you love, like AJ not being able to drum (or do some other things lol).
I'm also really pissed off because there's something in my room that keeps beeping and I don't know what it is. But I swear the beeping keeps moving.
Laters Dudes, Dudettes, and those yet to decide.
Joshua.

bleh

I can't remember why I decided to start blogging atm. I mean, I could rant on about the Nats winning the election, but I don't see the point. No-one reads this anyway. I just feel really empty at the moment.Dw, I'm not suicidal or anything, just empty. I'll post again if I decide I have something worth posting about.
Laters,
Joshua.

So, I heard Proposition 8 passed. I know it doesn't directly affect me, 'cause I don't line in Cali, or America, but it still makes me sad. Just as the news of Obama being voted in (huge grats to him btw) comes, it is made bittersweet by this blow to equal rights. Isn't California supposed to be one of the most progressive states? I don't wanna get into an anti-America thing, because there are loads of things I love about the country. But for a country founded on the ideal voiced by George Washington when he proclaimed that "All men are created equal", there are sooooo many double standards. Like Obama becoming Democratic candidate. I think it is great that America voted in not only a black candidate, but also a black President. But from what I have seen, Hillary Clinton didn't win because America would rather have a black president than a female one. But anywho, back to Prop. 8. Proposition 8 is, from what I can see, a violation of constitutional rights. The Fourteenth Amendment to the United States Constitution states in Section 1:

All persons born or naturalized in the United States, and subject to the jurisdiction thereof, are citizens of the United States and of the State wherein they reside. No State shall make or enforce any law which shall abridge the privileges or immunities of citizens of the United States; nor shall any State deprive any person of life, liberty, or property, without due process of law; nor deny to any person within its jurisdiction the equal protection of the laws.

Doesn't the part "No State shall make or enforce any law which shall abridge the privileges or immunities of citizens of the United States;" mean that Proposition 8, by denying gay couples the right to marry, mean that it is abridging (abridge: to deprive; cut off) a "privilege" of "citizens of the United States"?

Lol, I was only going to make a short post to display my regret. I would like to thank Wikipedia, for helping me cover and check the bits I wasn't too sure on.
Laters.

Joshua.

So with the NZ elections coming up this week, I fell obliged to make some sort of political statement. Here it is. Nationals policy all seems to be ridiculously left-wing to me (for those who don't know/care about NZ politics, National is our right-wing main party. Labour is the left). Even with politics in New Zealand all being quite "central", how can any self respecting National Party even consider making policy that wants to improve education and the health sector? I don't think these policy's are bad, I just can't understand how one of their billboards can say more doctors and nurses, and less bureaucrats. Have they no self-respect? But enough of the politics. Thankfully the campaigning will soon be over for another three years. So I have a question for anyone who has somehow managed to stumble over this blog. Actually I have two. Firstly, how do I find out my viewer count? Plz post answers in comments. Secondly, what is your favourite style of shoe? I will be creating a poll shortly to post your answers.
Laters.
Joshua.

1st Post! Yay!

So, I made a blog. Exciting. First I'll explain the name. I had no idea what i was going to call this thing. At the time I happened to be listening to Jesse McCartney's delectable album, Departure. Track 3, Rock You (Feat. Sean Garret) came on. So I used it. Long story, I know. So I'm a 17 year old teenage boy who lives in NZ and is flamboyantly gay with an amazing sense of style. So naturally I want to be a Fashion Designer when I grow up. I enjoy listening to music, and people frequently throw things at me to shut me up when I sing along. I enjoy drawing, when I can think of something to draw. I have an extremely boring life, so a lot of posts won't be about me. But I'm also narcissistic, and therefore won't be able to avoid the occasional one. Please comment if you like what I'm saying. If you are one of those charming people that hate things based on prejudices, don't bother to comment negatively on anything here purely because of aforementioned prejudices. I don't care how or why you are prejudiced, I won't read it. However, if you merely disagree on something I say due to differing point of view, please comment. I enjoy arguing. Anyway, I talk, or write as the case may be, too much. Expect tangents. Actually, I take back my earlier statement on prejudicial comments. Post them. I will try to use paragraphs in future, for easier reading, but its 1am and I really can't be bothered. Anywho, like I said I talk/write too much. I'm going to bed. Good Night (or good morning for people as anal retentive as me). Salut!